Silence

Dear friend,

What is your problem? You haven’t had anything nice to say in the longest time. You’ve been nothing but negative and I don’t think I can handle you anymore. You’re mean, hurtful, and downright rude.

I thought everything was fine between us but lately all you’ve done is seriously put me in a bad mood. You always have something to complain about even if it doesn’t directly affect you. You treat me as if I don’t understand anything; as if I’m a fucking idiot for you to talk down at me.

You’re not always right. No matter how hard you believe it. I, like other people have the right to have my own opinions. So stop acting like you know everything and let me fucking breathe.I tried reasoning with you, I tried talking to you calmly, but all you did was get angry.

Apparently having a conversation is not an option with you. Apparently I’m supposed to shut the fuck up and not say a word to you. Apparently I’m not allowed to be an individual when speaking to you. Apparently I have to be like everyone else who sits quietly and listens to what YOU have to say.

I didn’t know your word was law.

Sincerely,

Shutting the fuck up.

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It’s okay to have a bad day

Ten Reasons why Having a Bad Day is Okay

  1. Life isn’t perfect and because karma, like life, is a bitch. They just are.
  2. Because everyone else has bad days and if they claim that they don’t they are either lying or delusional.
  3. We learn from every struggle. Because getting through tough times, learning from what happened, and striving to not repeat the past or past mistakes is how we grow as a person.
  4. Bad days allow us to empathise with other people who might be going through the same thing. (If all we had were good days we would probably just roll our eyes and call them whiney instead of considering what that other person is experiencing).
  5. Because sometimes life needs to teach us a lesson; if we’re perceptive enough we’ll get it. (Some people just never learn though coughiwishyouknewwhoyouwerecough).
  6. You can’t always be running at 100% 24/7. Sometimes the stress of life, even the little things, builds up enough that you just have a bad day. Sometimes, you feel like you’re not motivated to do much, or that you’re grouchy, or that you’re sad. And that’s okay.
  7. Everyone has bad days, and everyone’s feelings are valid. Your feelings are valid.  Relax in the way you enjoy, whether it be reading, watching television, having tea, or going on a walk. Take some time for yourself, and just allow yourself to work through the fog.
  8. Because sometimes those bad days are leading up to something truly wonderful, but we can’t see that until we reach the end.
  9. A bad day might just be a warning sign from your body, telling you that you need to slow down and have a “self-care day”. Listen to it.
  10. Because they don’t last forever.

Song And Representation pt.2

Fast Forward

I grew curious after my post last night and decided to ask my friends to find a song that describes me or is representative of me in one way or another. Here is what they had to say:

  1. Tove Lo – Cool Girl.
  2. Rachel Platten – Fight Song.
  3. Alicia Keys – Superwoman.
  4. Destiny’s Child – Independent Woman.
  5. State of Mind. – Killing Me.
  6. Smash into Pieces – Stronger.
  7.  Scandroid – A Thousand Years.
  8.  Carlos Santana – Black Magic Woman
  9. Nancy Sinatra – These Boots are Made for Walkin’.
  10. Demi Lovato – Confident.

Gaming is Awesome

Ten Reasons Why You Should Start Playing Video Games

  1. It’s therapeutic. You get to let your frustrations and anger out at in-game issues.
  2. It’s okay to shoot things in the face online, but not in real-life.
  3. Gaming is like escaping into a new world.
  4. It’s an inclusive space. Whether you like first-person shooter, adventure, builder, or choose your own path games, there’s something for everyone.
  5. It’s a hobby and sometimes people do it for a living.
  6. You get to hang out with friends while playing – and you also get to meet some pretty cool people in-game.
  7. The graphics are beautiful and depending on the game, accurately represent real-life.
  8. You can explore themes, ideas, sexualities, situations, and consequences in a safe and controlled environment.
  9. Some of the soundtracks are AMAZING!
  10. Games are a wonderful tool for learning. It can honestly teach you real world skills like map reading, problem solving, hand-eye coordination, etc…

Does Time Exist?

My dearest favoritist teacher,

I absolutely adore the way you have no concept of how time works. According to your immeasurable wisdom, there are enough hours in the day for me to:

  • Wake up at 6 am
  • Have breakfast and get ready for the day – 1 hour (give or take)
  • Spend an hour in transit (With added time for waiting for buses that are NEVER on time) – 1.5 hours
  • Get to class from the stop – 0.5 hours
  • Spend nine hours (including lunch) in the class room – 9 hours
  • Get back to the stop – 0.5 hours
  • Spend another hour in transit (With added time for waiting for buses that are NEVER on time) – 1.5 hours
  • Prepare and eat dinner – 1 hour
  • Do about four hours of homework (To be honest I skimmed it or it would have taken longer) – 4 hours
  • Perform my usual nightly ritual (Teeth, wash face, etc.) – 1 hour
  • Let’s not forget bathroom breaks and the usual – 0.5 hours
  • And somehow get enough sleep for the next day.

For those of you counting along at home this only really leaves me 3.5 hours. The exact perfect amount of sleep!

Sincerely,
Over-Caffeinated and Sleep-Deprived

 

 

What I like about Me

3 Personality Traits I am Proud Of

I am proud of who I am and what I have become in many ways, these are just a few.

Ambitious

  • Ever since I began university, I knew that I wanted to be a doctor. At first, I was set on going to medical school. But, science and math were not my strongest of subjects. That didn’t deter me from achieving my dreams though. I took a bunch of arts and social science courses and that was found my calling in English and Feminist studies.I realized I wanted to teach at a college or university level. I could still be a doctor, just not the medical kind. Between the long hours at work, the time spent in class, staying up to odd hours in the night, waking up early, breaking down crying once or twice a week for various reasons… Needless to say, I worked my ass off to be where I am today. I have applied to various schools and am an acceptance letter away from that ‘Dr.’ prefix. I’m ambitious because I work hard, dream big and aim to succeed.

Empathetic

  • Sometimes I think I care too much. Way more than I should anyway. No, I don’t care about what people think of me, I care about other people. I’ve always been a sensitive person growing up, I still am in many ways… just not as much as I used to be. Adulting gives you thicker skin I guess. Anyways, ever since I declared myself to be a feminist I’ve noticed that I have become more and more aware and understanding of the feelings of another. I sympathize with their pain and try to be as compassionate as possible.

Sassy

  • Do I really need to describe this? Seriously?

Interview with a Vampire and a Viking

I wanted to do something a little different for this post. I was inspired by the following writing prompt:

“If you could read a book containing all that has happened and will ever happen in your life, would you? If you choose to read it, you must read it cover to cover.”

And so I decided to turn it into an interview with two of my best friends, Kyle and Jay.

Here’s what they had to say:

Bee: “Given the option,  would you read the book?

Kyle: “No”

Jay: “No I would not.”

B: “Why not?

K: “Because if I read it, it would make the results inevitable, regardless of if I like what I see. It will either be written in stone, grounded in having been read, or will become a self fulfilling prophecy, I read it, so my actions to prevent or encourage something will make it happen. (Besides, who really wants to read a few hundred pages describing how you eat, sleep, and dance around the house like a crazy person?)”

J: “Knowing everything that would happen in my life would mean experiencing the rest of it on rails. Knowing that, no matter what I do, there is a rail that I must follow due to destiny. I’d rather be surprised by each day as it comes, enjoy the good and lament the bad, without any foreknowledge.”

B: “What do you think would happen if you had decided to read it?

K: “It depends on the contents.”

J: “It would solve a lot of my questions, and might ease one of my greatest fears. I’m not sure it would be worth it in the end, though.”

B: “Now that we are talking about the future, what would you do if you could write your own book? What do you want to see in it and what would you want to leave out?

K: “I probably wouldn’t. I strongly dislike the idea of there being a book on the shelves where someone can pick it up, peruse through my life’s story, and judge me based on what I do or don’t write. If I want that human connection, that level of intimacy with someone I’ll get there through natural conversation. (Handing them a book and telling them to read about it just seems so conceited)”

J: “If I could write my own book, I probably still wouldn’t. If I did, I would want to leave out some of my more embarrassing moments, the ones I’m not proud of and that I do not feel contributed in a positive way to my development. What I would like to see in it is, other than that, the unvarnished truth. That way people could honestly tell what kind of man I am, for good or for ill.”

B: “Is there anything you’d like to add?

K: “I love you?”

J: “Nothing further.”

Thank you both!