Teacher-Teacher

Dear Fifth Grade Teacher,

You should have lost your licence to teach years before I entered your classroom – bitter old witch. I hated you, I hated going to school because of you. You clearly had no interest in teaching young children so why did you even bother? Oh wait… you had your favorites. Those who weren’t one of them, like me for instance knew who you liked best.

You liked the kids who had a strong sense of self, who were outspoken, who participated often and ignored those who lacked the confidence they needed. I never understood why you were the way you were. You helped and encouraged them and ignored or belittled so many others.

So much so that you yelled and screamed about stuff that wasn’t even our (my) fault. You wondered why you had so many complaints from parents and students. You had troubles in your life and you let it out on your students. That’s wrong on so many levels. I don’t think you ever understood that – even after you got fired for being such a horrible human.

I don’t know where you are today, what you’re doing, or even if you’re still alive. There’s something I’d like you to know. You made me cry, you forced me into extremely uncomfortable situations by singling me out, you pushed me down instead of helping me up, and worst of all you unconsciously tried to destroy any sense of self I had when I was in your class – and you tried to play the innocent card.

I wish I could face you and tell you all of this right to your face. Just to see your reaction. I wish you could see me now though. I wish you could see me flourish in ways that you couldn’t possibly imagine. I wish you could see that quiet girl (me) break down every mean, backhanded comment you have ever made about me. I wish you could see the confident, intellectual, bad-ass that I have become.

Sincerely,
I’m all Grown Up

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Mum’s the word

These are things I wish I could to each of you, but can’t.

  1. You’ve made me smile each and every time you’ve called me ‘beautiful’.
  2. Is that one Katy Perry song about you? One minute you’re flirty, the next you’re closed off.
  3. I really wish things had gone a different way between us.
  4. What is your problem? What crawled and died up your ass?
  5. I intimidate you because your masculinity is too fragile.
  6. I asked for your number not because I was into you; but because I was making connections.
  7. Stop asking me why I’m wearing makeup and who I’m trying to impress.
  8. Why did you distance yourself from me?
  9. I ignore you because sometimes, my mental health can’t handle you.
  10. Thank you for being such an amazing role model.

Interview with A Gamer

Given my new found love for online gaming, I thought it would be nice to ask one of my best friends (who by the way introduced me to gaming) a few questions about her experiences with video games.

Bee: What are you currently playing? 

Kyle:  Ark Survival Evolved

B: What do you like/not like about it?

K: Like: DRAGONS! (and unicorns when I can find one.) The other creatures are okay too I guess. Dislike: The infernal building mechanic and its refusal to snap bases

B: Are you playing or can you play it with your friends?

K:  Yes and Yes. (You would know, I play with you)

B: Are there any new games that you want to play or are excited about? 

K:  So many, and older ones too. Maybe? Dunno.

B: What is the worst game you have ever played? 

K: Worst: Shadowrun for x-box (Some super dumb capture the flag VS. AI game that was beyond garbage.)

B: Were you surprised it was so bad?

K: I  was surprised that the game content didn’t match the cover art (Which was related to a pretty cool tabletop system I enjoyed)

B: What are your five favorite video games?

K:  Yes I know I cheat by using a series but I can’t pick one in it) Mass Effect trillogy (Andromeda was only okay. Had great potential, but got screwed by EA) Dragon age (All the games) Subnautica Overwatch Minecraft

B: Thank you love, is there anything you’d like to add?

K: At the moment, no.

A Woman’s Place

Dear Trapped in the 50’s,

I don’t remember your name, just that you were a misogynist straight out of one of those old 1950’s adds for “Better Home and Garden”. We were on our first date and got to talking, getting to know each other as new couples do. We covered all sorts of topics ranging from the future, work and school, to small talk. Just as I was starting to like you, you came swinging out of left field. “Women shouldn’t work.

Their place is in the home, cooking and taking care of the children.” I stared blankly at you, speechless and unsure of how to respond to such a thing. I took a moment to process this new information. So much of me wanted to yell at you, to explain to you how the world stopped following that archaic way of thinking decades ago. I wanted to call you sexist, misogynistic, insensitive. Instead I somehow managed to muster the strength not to. Instead, I calmly called you out on your bullshit and walked out on you.

By the way, the 1950’s called. Even they don’t want you back.

Sincerely,
That woman from the 21st century

Does Time Exist?

My dearest favoritist teacher,

I absolutely adore the way you have no concept of how time works. According to your immeasurable wisdom, there are enough hours in the day for me to:

  • Wake up at 6 am
  • Have breakfast and get ready for the day – 1 hour (give or take)
  • Spend an hour in transit (With added time for waiting for buses that are NEVER on time) – 1.5 hours
  • Get to class from the stop – 0.5 hours
  • Spend nine hours (including lunch) in the class room – 9 hours
  • Get back to the stop – 0.5 hours
  • Spend another hour in transit (With added time for waiting for buses that are NEVER on time) – 1.5 hours
  • Prepare and eat dinner – 1 hour
  • Do about four hours of homework (To be honest I skimmed it or it would have taken longer) – 4 hours
  • Perform my usual nightly ritual (Teeth, wash face, etc.) – 1 hour
  • Let’s not forget bathroom breaks and the usual – 0.5 hours
  • And somehow get enough sleep for the next day.

For those of you counting along at home this only really leaves me 3.5 hours. The exact perfect amount of sleep!

Sincerely,
Over-Caffeinated and Sleep-Deprived

 

 

What I like about Me

3 Personality Traits I am Proud Of

I am proud of who I am and what I have become in many ways, these are just a few.

Ambitious

  • Ever since I began university, I knew that I wanted to be a doctor. At first, I was set on going to medical school. But, science and math were not my strongest of subjects. That didn’t deter me from achieving my dreams though. I took a bunch of arts and social science courses and that was found my calling in English and Feminist studies.I realized I wanted to teach at a college or university level. I could still be a doctor, just not the medical kind. Between the long hours at work, the time spent in class, staying up to odd hours in the night, waking up early, breaking down crying once or twice a week for various reasons… Needless to say, I worked my ass off to be where I am today. I have applied to various schools and am an acceptance letter away from that ‘Dr.’ prefix. I’m ambitious because I work hard, dream big and aim to succeed.

Empathetic

  • Sometimes I think I care too much. Way more than I should anyway. No, I don’t care about what people think of me, I care about other people. I’ve always been a sensitive person growing up, I still am in many ways… just not as much as I used to be. Adulting gives you thicker skin I guess. Anyways, ever since I declared myself to be a feminist I’ve noticed that I have become more and more aware and understanding of the feelings of another. I sympathize with their pain and try to be as compassionate as possible.

Sassy

  • Do I really need to describe this? Seriously?

Take Me There

Top 10 places I’d like to Visit

  1. Athens, Greece88786323-56a3b0fc5f9b58b7d0d331f2(For it’s history, mythology and culture)
  2. London, Englandlondon(For it’s architecture, museum and experiencing the tube)
  3. Paris, Franceeiffel-tower-paris-france(Simply because I’ve always wanted to go to the top of the Eiffel tower)
  4. Madrid, Spainmadrid-5(For the culture, art and cathedrals)
  5. Florence, Italy636018720314907846447253188_florence20italy(For the art and architecture)
  6. Sydney, Australiaazamara_quest_in_sydney-australia-sydney(Just because I want to go)
  7. New York City, USAliberty2(For the Statue of Liberty and Times Square)
  8. Vancouver, Canadaaerial_sunset_vancouver_a59b88be-e776-43cb-8d46-efe3117ac949(For the art, music, theaters and music scenes)
  9. Prague, Czech Republicprague_hero(For it’s architecture and beauty)
  10. Giza, Egyptegyptian-pyramids-hero-h(I mean… why not?)